"Our creative dreams and yearnings come from a divine source...as we move towards our dreams, we move towards our divinity." - Julia Cameron - The Artist Way
I'm working really hard to be authentic and express myself. It's not easy. Life is hard and I can get stumped. I'm working to keep growing anyway.
I have had artist block for a couple weeks. I have all these paintings in my head and they are all waiting to come out... but several times I pulled out my paint and then just stood there. Why? I'm thinking because I had one door close on me recently. Well, one more. Sometimes as an artist I get told "no thanks" or "maybe another time" or "I'll let ya know"... that is hard. It makes me doubt myself as an artist. I question what I'm even doing and why do I care so much to express myself this way and share it with people.
Sometimes I don't feel worthy of my "artist calling". I don't feel good enough or talented enough. I have new ideas and I'm a little nervous about sharing them outside my head. I see so many images in my head... I picture them on a canvas and in a frame. Those images are safe there, in my head. Nobody judges them there. I'm trying to be brave and let them out. Y'all can hold me accountable. All you two people that read this anyway. I'm going to try some new things and will hopefully blog about them. I think I can, I think I can...
Here are two new paintings I did a couple weeks ago. I was hoping to show them at an art show, but didn't get the call back. sigh. They are large with so much texture and gold coming through the background and love throughout. Don't mind the glitter... I needed some sparkle in my life. These paintings are different in person. I always hear people say they are bigger in person, or more movement and color. I hope you will get to see these in person if you like them!
Growing Stronger is a 36"x48" Oil on Canvas
Authentic Beauty is a 36"x36" Oil on Canvas.
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